yamaonna

“Frankly my dear, I dont give a damn” – the words made famous by Clark Gable in Gone with the wind.

Why do I bring this quote up? well, I had the rather disturbing thought today that I really dont give a damn about many things.  many many things.

mum is always on my back about the way I present myself. and at times I have said some very stupid comments along the line of “i dont care…” and shrugging things off.  and it occured to me that this really isnt very good

so, from now I intened to say “I havent really given it much thought” instead of the before mentioned phase.

but thats only half of why I find it disturbing that I dont give a damn about alot of things.  for example I really dont pay any attention to world news, because it really doenst affect me in any mannor that I can have a say in. (btw, i dont believe that one person can change the world, but they can make a difference – I will die happy if I have made a difference in one persons life, positive I hope) or even australian news.

but in my defence, I cant care about everything. no one can. and I tend to care tooooo deeply (yes, I know, manga is too much of an obsession for me… neway) and as a defence mechanism, I just dont care.  but now there is hardly anything I truly care about.

I think I need to find things I care about, not too many, just enough, and when I do care about something, be passionate about it, and put so much effort into it.  so that it is noticable to others about me.

another aim…